Friday 29 May 2009

the ruby dream

every morning boasts more blue sky
i’m overwhelmed by you
i cannot write
squeeze out but just some idiot happy lines
the way you throw your arms around my neck
and smile
the way you slip your dress down to the floor
and i
forget to breathe for quite a long while

week by week I’m sucking on a straw
we’re living somewhere
outside the world
with perfect moments and a perfect play
the way you look at me when
i look away
the way I lay my leg on you before
i wake
makes me wish it always stays the same

spring is meowing like a playful cat
or maybe only
we can notice that
tuned to the wave of ruby dream
the way you close your eyes when
you are kissing me
the way you sometimes cry when
you believe i sleep
makes me think i’ll never ever let you leave

the feather boats

the feather boats dragged onto hostile shore
their rowers devoured their skins lie like mats on the floor
i watch from somewhere shaking with dull painful throes
the feather boats scattered like no one will sail them back home
but when the sky was still blue
and serene
the feather boats flew
the sea was deep green
and I was a boy
with beautiful eyes
my father was young
and my mother all smiles

yet I float like a snowflake and watch remnants sink into sand
my flaccid slow head sways this vision is going on end
it smells like stale perfume, i breathe in the sweet sticky scent
the feather boats vanish, the last little copper coin spent
the mouth of the trap opened wide
and inviting
it was a mysterious ride
so exciting
every next morning
the sky was brand new
when did it change
oh i never knew

now i’m crushed like a bug the glassy sky lies on the ground
the funny bells ring the same pattern round and round
the feather boats lost, i think they will never be found
in the end of the dream it turned into pus pouring out
the sick thrill invades through my breath
i’m so tired
i don’t want to finish myself
in this pyre
but i’m a stranger
to all I believe
when all i despise
is the inside of me

set sail
and take me away
set sail
i can’t stand this strain
set sail
and stop it stop it going on
set sail
please take me back home